2005

suspicion.phonecall.discovery.pain.
quarrel.shouts.tears.pain.
denial.denial.eased.pain.
friends.laughter.smiles.pain.
oc.exams.results.pain.
benefit of doubt.camp.discovery.pain.
pain.pain.pain.resolution.
avoidance.activities.occupied.recovery
confide.alley bar.connection.friendship.
visits.surprises.lunches.friendship.
consolation.advice.middleman.development.
attraction.locked out.one night.lovers.
secrets.
friendships.laughter.joy.walas.
uniting nations.support.jokes.happiness.
eye-candy.lollipop man.thrill.excitement.
infatuation.flirting.shopping.race.
no race.flirting.dinner.flirting.
study.crystal jade.tease.flirting.
study.discovery.embarrassment.chijazz.
chicken rice.walk.question game.walk.
wat do u do in ur free time?
flirting.shamelessly flirting.hot date.cavenagh bridge.
yes i will.hands.fondue.blisspoint.
bliss.bliss.bliss.
meiji chocolates.orange juice.escalator time.escapade.
birthday.secret garden.walk.walas.
one month.roses.prata.night safari.
genting.polar express.nice chat.MOSE101.
spaceshot.bus ride.serenade.bliss.
mt faber.surprise.tree.joy.
christmas eve.white chicks.bewitched.pizza.
christmas.indian poker.kings.drinks.
i swear.
new year's eve.high.high.evening stroll.
happy new year.

fooled again

it puzzles me
730 days
17520 hrs
1051200mins
wat did all that mean to u?
it seems,when i look in ur eyes
u no longer remember me
u lured me back only to turn me into a stranger
ive been fooled again and again
even after ive put it all behind
erased the hurts n blurred the memories
u still choose to play ur childish mind games
is this why u take so many photos
because u dont remember things,people
memories dont exist in ur vocabulary...

this christmas

this christmas i wasnt a good girl

i lied
i said i bought u the ljungberg underwear
accused u of being dissapointed with it
got u upset with me for accusing u
but it turned out to be polo blue
which u smell so good in
i lied

i made u cry
u opened ur present,
screeched a loud screech
buried ur face in ur hands
wiped ur tears on ur sleeves
and hugged me
i made u cry

how can i make it up to u
the both of u

the magic of christmas

shopping frenzy yesterday
bought prezzies for my lovelies
then i came across this email
that talks about extravagant giving
that nothing beats giving during christmas
we buy gifts all the time
for people near and far
but when christmas stirs near
it is as if a force pushes u,ur hand and ur money forward
compelling u to give

and strangely,
u enjoy parting with this money
money that u would stinge on
to buy new shoes
ridiculous sums u pay for the same thing a month ago
u pay,uve been ripped but ure satisfied
then u spend 3 days wrapping n still look forward to more wrapping
u turn ur house into a paper war zone and ure pleased

and once ure done tying ribbons,writing cards,
arranging them in order of size,biggest present at the bottom
u sit and stare in anticipation
of the day u pass the present to its rightful owner

to see them rip the ribbon u took 3 hours measuring
paper u took a day to find
cardboard boxes u paid $13 for
enduring till u see that one thing u seek
a smile appears,arms open wide,a tight hug
n nothing else matters

this is the magic that christmas brings

pam n yam

leap

while i was dancing today
i saw You
and how You cried
pleading that You may not die
the death i was meant to die
how You begged
beads of bloody sweat

i dance the steps
that were choreographed for You
for me
the dance You danced
so that my feet would not only walk
but leap

i am eternally grateful

time of my life

photos will be up soon

i had the time of my life
best trip ever i must say
etched in my mind are

ur spice girls' dance
the way u said,darling im very scared
ur neverending screams
on the roller coasters

ur prisoner photo pose
the nervous look at the blackjack table
ur endless being prostitute at tai ti

ur rotten cantonese
how u cracked me up with ur malaysian accent
ur sweet serenade surprise line

cant wait for destination bangkok
for joycee,jemmy and the one i call baby

i love u for who u are

ljungberg is spanish

ljungberg is spanish
no he's not
he's dutch and he plays for the holland team
huh?spanish then cannot play for holland team meh?
OF COURSE NOT.
if he's of a dutch nationality,naturally he'll play for holland
but heskey is black and he plays for the england team
and inamoto is japanese and he plays for arsenal

ok,listen to me if im singaporean
i'll represent singapore in the world cup
even if im malay and singaporean
i'll still play for singapore
let's say im damn good and get to play in the english premier league
i'll still be a singaporean who is damn good and play for say arsenal
so if ljungberg is dutch
he'll naturally play for the holland team

turns out
ljungberg is swedish
excerpt from a conversation i had last night