silent all these years

i've made mistakes that i regret
and choices that i look back
& scorn at my misjudgement

i've done things against my will
to satiate the desire of them but still
i find no meaning at the end

i've cried those cutting tears
they remain silent all these years
stifled under the muting sheets

what does it take to revive
the life that used to live
inside that smiled the smile
and laughed the laugh
like the world could crash into my face from above
and i would still be blissful?

loves of my life

the love of my life has returned
we spent time shopping
and consuming the next love of my life
can u tell from the green straw?

then i found this pic on hanwen's blog
the love of my life, both him & ben & jerry's
spot me!

for joycee

arabian nights

happy 21st flea!

tsktsk, u never know what wildon is thinking...

poor ben

me and my sexy

i didnt credit the photographer for the previous pic

here she is
this is the big 365 gift! thanks baby! (again)
joycee calls it the anorexic phone
and mocha calls it the calculator!
but she is OH SO SEXY...

he's 22!

you're the best thing that's happened to me

happy 22nd birthday
i love you

glue sniffing

when i was a kid, my dad warned me abt the elephant glue
"never let it get to your fingers, they could be stuck forever"

i went to the bookstore in search of elephant glue
so that i could fix my shoe's falling ribbon.
the dude said there was no elephant glue,
asked me if i wanted uhu instead
uhu is friendly.
uhu is sticky and guey
and u spread uhu on your hands
and spend the entire art class peeling it off.
so ok, it's quite strong anyway, should do the work.
BUT, he gave me uhu super mini.
which looked cute and small
and i thought was probably handy travel size of uhu sticky guey.
i bought it.

took it out, pierced a hole in the aluminium top,
got glue ALL over my hands.
first thought: it's sticky guey, peel off later
second thought: shit it's not sticky guey, it smells like elephant glue
third thought: im getting a headache from smelling it, my fingers are stuck

i tore my fingers apart
kept them apart
they're not stuck together thank GOD
but there's hardened elephant-like glue all over my hands
that i've to spend the entire christmas peeling off : (

family BONDing

becky: what were the 4 bond movies that
Pierce Brosnan starred in?
me: tomorrow never dies, golden eye...
renn: the world is not enough...

becky: sharks, what's the last one apart from
tomorrow never dies,
golden eye and the world is not enough?
(using her fingers to count the 3
then looks at teh gao for the ans because we were all clueless)
teh gao: (looks in the air) the world...is not enough

becky, renn and i break into a giggle

becky: ok...APART from that?
teh gao: tomorrow never dies
becky (rolls eyes): ya! APART from that?
teh gao: (now in real deep thought for about 10 secs) GOLDENEYE!
just for the record, teh gao FINALLY gave us the answer after 15mins
Die Another Day

christmas

ahh..wat do u knw?
the time of the year has come again
and it brings with it pretty red cups
filled with the most intoxicating, invigorating poison
anyone can find,
topped with the most sinful of sins swirled across the top
with dozens of the finest magic sprinkled on it.
: ) christmas...

big 365

last night was perfect...

week 11

so i have alot to complain about
but since everyone's complaining too
i shall not
i shall try something different

im now listening to a duet between lee hom
and some girl called candy lo
and im feeling light and happy
had one of the most fun proj meetings just now
with poh, j.h and joycee, karaoke session of sorts
im tired but im content
and we're celebrating the big 365days on sunday
so i get to wear my pretty red dress
teh gao says im getting better at fencing
but i kinda miss the touch girls
(touch girls: i miss u)
and the mud and grass

i like finance under chua chong tze
and his bad jokes
hercules is cute in maritime with the receding hairline
and social psych...well, there's the fun groupmates i mentioned
so all is well for me

school, pls end now...

yesterdays

yesterday, teh gao and i were going through
his photo album
he pointed out some people
told me some stories
and there were some bursts of laughter
at silly moments



some place in time we never shared
some people we never knew
we walked our paths
for some reason meet
to share a time no one else would

thank you

pms

eat your favourite dish
and not feel the utmost pleasure
watch a good film
and not be completely satisfied
listen to a soothing tune
and still be heavy hearted
watch a rainbow form
a teardrop roll down your eye

sip on a cappucino
and miss the sense of euphoria
watch a baby laugh
and fake a smile to be polite
hear a joke told
and didn't understand it
see a star twinkle bright
pass a glance and walk on by

Sports Awards Night '06

the touch girls who deserve Best Team Spirit Award
(photographers should be taught to take half-bodied photos!
check out the funny leg positions)

ngoh you' an, wee shu shu and daisy!

the sweet darling who didnt thank his gf on stage

the hot denise who loves me!

Congrats to SMU Fencing who clinched
Sportsman of the Year: David
MVP: Maccann
Competitive Excellence Award &
Team of the Year Award

and of course to the EILEEN LIM SHUXIAN who's MVP for touch

and should've won MVP of the Year but the judges are blind!

snow patrol

we'll do it all,everything,on our own
we don't need anything or anyone

if i lay here
if i just lay here
would you lie with me and just forget the world

i don't quite know how to say how i feel
those three words are said too much
they're not enough

if i lay here
if i just lay here
would you lie with me and just forget the world
forget what we're told before we get too old
show me a garden that's bursting into life
- snow patrol, chasing cars

keeps

so i took a walk last week
down this place that holds all my memories
it holds them in tact,
in the way i want to remember them
happy 11 months baby

forever

watch the night lights speed by
the wind through my face cut
deep into the veins of my mind
i long to hear nothing
not now, not ever

take the hands of time
and twist them till ure satisfied
watch it unwind
before your eyes
tears,laughter

the warmth of the familiar
scent,face,voice
fear the strange,
the echoed noise
hold me now,and tight
forever

let him go

can time erase the pain that stays
will words handle the truth like they should be
what does it take for one to hold on
to promises that holds no eternity?

u look in the eyes of the one cutting your flesh
letting your blood drip u dry
yet u smile with glee and truthful pleasure
saying 'i love u' like it's some cheap reply.

how do u dance to the songs he play
or laugh at his words made to lure
when his hands wander to places unknown
to hearts all around you but yours?
for passion tea

guess who?

photograph by Michael Cheng

hk dream

hong kong beckons

been busy at work and packing for Hong Kong
which i leave for in 3 days!
but here's the little bit of life within the mundane

eileen and pj's 21st at sizzler's


and then there was coldplay

and the darling who brought me there

to many happy hongky days!

happy bday mic!

the team

the friends

and the stars
at bacchus boathouse for mic's 70's- disco 21st
u were gorgeous babe

see food?

so we went to jb to have seafood

it went from this...

to this.
and there was only teh gao and me

on a side note, i am bored no more!
gonna start my internship on the 26th of June

teh gao vs samson

my favourite shot in all of FSI
teh gao vs samson (national fencer by the way)
check out the stance!

9hrs to FSI

1 fusheng = 2metres

mini me

the stage is set,
i am half dead
but it's worth it cuz for this
i get 1facial, 1full body massage,
1brazilian, 1pedicure and 1yummy dinner
u pinky swore!

FSI

it is soon...
no prizes for guessing the man behind the mask

uniting nations at hooters

beasts

i awake to the dusk your voice brings
the clouds shadowing
hovering above and around
no rhyme to attract
nor reason to bring
such immense torture to my being
my mind
whirling,confused,unfound

your selfishness and mine collide
i fail to comprehend
u fail to fathom or try to find
the reasons our hatred unceasingly multiply
and like ruthless beasts our minds fight
till one devours the other perish

my daddy

so my daddy turns 60 today
apart from the little prank
we played on him this morning
his 60th birthday got me thinking
about what it'd be like to be 60
did he think he'll be 60 at 22?
but my daddy made it big once in his lifetime
and now he's retired and hopefully happy, content.

1958,aged 12, chinese brush painting/
1987 metal works to prints

changi airport terminal 2- departure hall
completed 1991

Shenton Way- DBS bank

just a little part of daddy that i'll always be proud of
that'll always remind me that his talent is God- sent

happy 60th bday dad!

my father's eyes

that's when i need my father's eyes
- eric clapton

6m2d

and then it was 6months & 2 days

my love divine

i dont believe in love
& all its magical promises
i dont believe in smiling stars
& moonlight gentle kisses

i dont believe in morning calls
to wish a day of sunshine
i dont believe in warm embraces
sneaking from my behind

i dont believe in all the things
that smell & taste & look pretty
but u made them real,
my love divine
& now i do believe
for teh gao

who's artistic?

the making

the painters

the painters & friends