i think

somehow,everytime i meet up with mocha
i think.
not that i dont think on normal occasions
but i think more...
so today
i thought about a few things:
i thought about why i was upset
was it because i lost something
or because i truly loved it
and then i thought again
and i realised what i truly loved was not in what i just lost
then i wasn't so sad about what i lost anymore.
also,i thought about how we learn from our past r/ships
and carry them forward to the next one.
we find remnants...always.
also,i felt misunderstood
because i finally came to terms with my feelings
and i felt i was being judged based on what i used to feel
which i discovered was not the genuine expression.