do u remember?

does anyone keep memories the way i do?
they are alive in my head,
living in me

do u remember when we sat on the boulder
at east coast park and spotted a bouquet of flowers
stuck between the rocks and wondered
wat happened between the giver n receiver of the flowers?

do u remember when we took our shoes off
and raced to the LOVE at parkmall,
spun around the lamp post
and walked backwards at the traffic junction
in front of all the cars?

do u remember when u made me meet u at the thing at heeren
and i didnt knw wat u were talking about,
just to walk me to a tree at somerset
made me look on the ground at the saga seeds
and picked one for me?

do u remember how we wanted to rehearse our dance routine
and i was supposed to spin into ur arms
but u spun as i was spinning and we collided into each other?

do u remember?do u remember?do u remember?
because till today,
im still living those memories
and collecting more

for you

I do not love you as if you were the salt-rose, or topaz,
or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.
I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that never blooms
but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;
thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,
risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way

than this: where I does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.
-Pablo Neruda, Sonnet 17

2005

suspicion.phonecall.discovery.pain.
quarrel.shouts.tears.pain.
denial.denial.eased.pain.
friends.laughter.smiles.pain.
oc.exams.results.pain.
benefit of doubt.camp.discovery.pain.
pain.pain.pain.resolution.
avoidance.activities.occupied.recovery
confide.alley bar.connection.friendship.
visits.surprises.lunches.friendship.
consolation.advice.middleman.development.
attraction.locked out.one night.lovers.
secrets.
friendships.laughter.joy.walas.
uniting nations.support.jokes.happiness.
eye-candy.lollipop man.thrill.excitement.
infatuation.flirting.shopping.race.
no race.flirting.dinner.flirting.
study.crystal jade.tease.flirting.
study.discovery.embarrassment.chijazz.
chicken rice.walk.question game.walk.
wat do u do in ur free time?
flirting.shamelessly flirting.hot date.cavenagh bridge.
yes i will.hands.fondue.blisspoint.
bliss.bliss.bliss.
meiji chocolates.orange juice.escalator time.escapade.
birthday.secret garden.walk.walas.
one month.roses.prata.night safari.
genting.polar express.nice chat.MOSE101.
spaceshot.bus ride.serenade.bliss.
mt faber.surprise.tree.joy.
christmas eve.white chicks.bewitched.pizza.
christmas.indian poker.kings.drinks.
i swear.
new year's eve.high.high.evening stroll.
happy new year.

fooled again

it puzzles me
730 days
17520 hrs
1051200mins
wat did all that mean to u?
it seems,when i look in ur eyes
u no longer remember me
u lured me back only to turn me into a stranger
ive been fooled again and again
even after ive put it all behind
erased the hurts n blurred the memories
u still choose to play ur childish mind games
is this why u take so many photos
because u dont remember things,people
memories dont exist in ur vocabulary...

this christmas

this christmas i wasnt a good girl

i lied
i said i bought u the ljungberg underwear
accused u of being dissapointed with it
got u upset with me for accusing u
but it turned out to be polo blue
which u smell so good in
i lied

i made u cry
u opened ur present,
screeched a loud screech
buried ur face in ur hands
wiped ur tears on ur sleeves
and hugged me
i made u cry

how can i make it up to u
the both of u

the magic of christmas

shopping frenzy yesterday
bought prezzies for my lovelies
then i came across this email
that talks about extravagant giving
that nothing beats giving during christmas
we buy gifts all the time
for people near and far
but when christmas stirs near
it is as if a force pushes u,ur hand and ur money forward
compelling u to give

and strangely,
u enjoy parting with this money
money that u would stinge on
to buy new shoes
ridiculous sums u pay for the same thing a month ago
u pay,uve been ripped but ure satisfied
then u spend 3 days wrapping n still look forward to more wrapping
u turn ur house into a paper war zone and ure pleased

and once ure done tying ribbons,writing cards,
arranging them in order of size,biggest present at the bottom
u sit and stare in anticipation
of the day u pass the present to its rightful owner

to see them rip the ribbon u took 3 hours measuring
paper u took a day to find
cardboard boxes u paid $13 for
enduring till u see that one thing u seek
a smile appears,arms open wide,a tight hug
n nothing else matters

this is the magic that christmas brings

pam n yam