smile to keep me smiling

i cried a tear for u
because i feel your pain
and also because i feel inadequate
for being so helpless
when u need most help
our hearts are one but our bodies so far apart
all i want
is to hold ur trembling form in my arms
let u wet my shoulders with ur tears
and perhaps that little effort will assure u
that there is still hope,
that everything's gonna be alright

the world around us has tainted us with cynicism
torn us away from the innocence we used to hold
and in innocence there was hope,love,trust,bliss
now everything is dark and somewhat miserable
and in our efforts to fight this darkness
i want you to know that i am still here
still around
to help preserve the innocence we yearn to keep
in disney stories or sing-alongs
picture moments or old love songs

i love you
and my heart beats in tandem with urs
smile to keep me smiling
for sung

dusk

headlights break the dark of night
surprise anticipated

the speed of wind holds no bounds
on the speed of your car accelerated

we danced beneath the darkened sky
the midnight silence interrupted

the world around us froze in time
our love for us celebrated
for teh gao

how deeply

u thought i didnt hear you this morning
as you blew dry your hair
yelling at the other two to follow you
dont stay at home and rot
ive already lost one daughter
dont let me lose another one

no her daughter didnt die
her daughter is here

how deeply your words cut
they force themselves through
the walls of my unlistening ears
familiar with the route to my heart and mind
to tear away every ounce of pride and self worth

why do u hate me like that?

do u remember?

does anyone keep memories the way i do?
they are alive in my head,
living in me

do u remember when we sat on the boulder
at east coast park and spotted a bouquet of flowers
stuck between the rocks and wondered
wat happened between the giver n receiver of the flowers?

do u remember when we took our shoes off
and raced to the LOVE at parkmall,
spun around the lamp post
and walked backwards at the traffic junction
in front of all the cars?

do u remember when u made me meet u at the thing at heeren
and i didnt knw wat u were talking about,
just to walk me to a tree at somerset
made me look on the ground at the saga seeds
and picked one for me?

do u remember how we wanted to rehearse our dance routine
and i was supposed to spin into ur arms
but u spun as i was spinning and we collided into each other?

do u remember?do u remember?do u remember?
because till today,
im still living those memories
and collecting more

for you

I do not love you as if you were the salt-rose, or topaz,
or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.
I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that never blooms
but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;
thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,
risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way

than this: where I does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.
-Pablo Neruda, Sonnet 17