lovepuke

yesterday,my mom n i peeked into wuzzy's cage
and she was sleeping on her back
her hands together
and her legs together
then suddenly
her mouth started to move in occasional spasms
i looked at my mom and said
she's sleep talking
then it reminded me of Dory in Finding Nemo
"the sea monkeys took my money"
"yea,i'm a natural blue..."

watched LOVEPUKE on sunday
and i loved it
it portrayed the emotions of two people of the opposite sex
from courtship to marriage
in such clear, honest expressions
the way the play was exposed was also unconventional
in that the emotions were vocalised instead of felt,
which usually leaves room for the audience to speculate
yet,in all it's honesty,it was light-hearted
easy to comprehend and relate to.
i love janice koh
she rocks man
sexy,cool,confident,funny and full of style
a must watch!

the new era

today marks the beginning of a new era in my life
im really excited about what Daddy has in store for me
some words spoken to me over the last week
were words of life
this verse kept springing up in my head
"...being confident of this very thing,that He who has begun
a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ"

then i look at my life and i realised how much my Daddy loves me
and how much i dont deserve what He has given to me.
in this camp,i did not receive what most would call deep revelation
what i did receive is the most fundamental of the Christian doctrine,
the very reason we exist and the only adjective by which we describe my Daddy:
love
and love never fails
my Daddy never fails
never did,never will

dbl espresso bought me a white adidas visor
hee

BenGen Camp

this is the nana sisterhood

preparing for jap night

threshold is two glasses

not paying attention during service

for you

and it may take some time to patch me up inside
but i cant take it so i run away and hide
and i may find in time that u were always right,ure always right.

so u sailed away,into a grey sky morning
now im here to stay,love can be so boring

what was it u wanted?could it be im haunted?

but it's not so bad,ure only the best i ever had
i dont want u back,ure just the best i ever had

letting go

im excited about church camp!
and im determined to put on a little bit of weight
(at the right places of course
i.e. boobs and butt,altho some claim i'll tip over)
and my church's camps are good for putting on weight.
buffets trailing after buffets
plus room service
and a great team of eating friends;they are called the nanas (waves)
who will stick by you from breakfast to supper,starters to desserts!

i was on the bus home just now n just playing the oc in my head
(so i was bored ok?)
and this particular scene with theresa talking to ryan flashed in my head
she said something to the extent of it hurt marissa to let ryan go
but she let him leave with theresa anyway
because he was responsible for impreganating her.
this is the cliche saying, "if u love the person let him/her go"
well,i think it is humanly possible
as in,people have let their partners leave with others
but sometimes,u let go not cuz u love the person...

slowly but surely

have u ever had moments when
everything around u is a mess
ur life is all screwed up
u wanna start anew
suicide crosses your mind
but u shove it aside
then u think, vodka + panadol will be painless
but u shove it aside
ur tears wont stop rolling down
even though you tilt ur head upwards
u dig into the fridge for chocolates
n gorge them down
but the tears wont stop n everything is still a chaos
n u feel stupid for feeling like this n suicide crosses ur mind again...
then the phone rings
n u pick it up
n with a simple hello
the chaos stands still,
the tears stop rolling
suicide scurries away
ur life suddenly seems perfect
n u couldnt ask for more
n a smile slowly but surely,creeps onto ur face.
n u hear "everything's gonna be alright"
n u know it's true.
thank you dbl espresso.
this is you.

for you

there's still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
there's still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
it's still a little hard to say what's going on

there's still a little bit of your ghost,your weakness
there's still a little bit of your face i havent kissed
you step a little closer each day
that i cant see what's going on

stones taught me to fly
love,it taught me to lie
life,it taught me to die
so it's not hard to fall
when you float like a cannonball
damien rice - cannonball